Wednesday, December 16, 2009
YOZ. I'm feeling good to be back home, back to my familiar area. But I'm missed camp alr. Camp09 was gr8 awesome superb! Registration simplecoolYItee games wash-up PastorGlyn service praise&worship altar-calls morningdevotion breakfast visions lunch workshops runwayladies missYI photography dinner debrief supper girlstalk war-games encouragements clean-up cheeringcomp prizepresentations homed. Yupp, camp09 was slightly different from the camps in the past years. Although its sad that many people are not able to join us, still there're breakthroughs, breakthroughs and more breakthroughs. Presence of God was so strong that everyone experienced different kinda encounters with God. I do hope people who aren't feeling well would be alright, be it sorethroat cough flu backaches muscleaches headaches injuries, God heal. ((:I'm most thankful for Your Presence to be with us during the camp. Despite satan trying his ways stopping us from praising and worshipping You, so many people being uncomfortable and feeling sick, all of us still made this camp possible. Whatever You planted inside us, let's us not go home and forget all about it. Instead, let's us continue to dwell in Your presence and words so that everyday we would face a different encounter with You. This is not the end of 2009 but its a kickstart for 20ten!
THAT DAY I renewed my faith in You, THAT DAY Your presence was so strong, THAT DAY You spoke directly and clearly to me, THAT DAY I rededicate my life to You. I will never forget THAT DAY, and wished that everyday could be like THAT DAY.
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Sunday, December 6, 2009
jupjup is so cute la. LOL
Saw Hi-5 ad taka this afternoon. It's the "new" Hi-5, yucks. Don't like them, still prefer the "old" ones. ;D I found this video of Tim and Kathleen from Hi-5, these are two of my favorite childhood songs. heh, nise.
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Friday, December 4, 2009
Yaahoo! Last day of submissions, the last 15mins before the end of submission is chaos. Everyone is running around like mad. Still, it was a relief that everything is over. BUT, the worse is coming. So let's suffer everybody:D HAPPY BIRDAY SHIT! Mostly everyone's birthday this year is only girls gathering, actually I prefer this than clique gathering. Easier to talk among each other. heh. We celebrated her birthday in advance because her ahmok booked her on her actual day. AISH! Ya, I think she likes the gift we gave her, no she better like them. heh.
I thank You for the strength and energy this entire week which enables us to endure through all the submissions and sleepless nights. Even from the littlest things, You bless. I thank You.
P.S ME, stop flirting. ugh!
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Monday, November 30, 2009
Nise, there's submissions everyday apart from tuesday this week. How good can it be? :S
Get married to a cow. Love blossom for sure(; lol
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Saturday, November 28, 2009
Been returning back late these days, was super tired that I didn't even have time to play Pet Society, my daily game. heh. Ytd was public holiday, I've got to pamper myself with some shopping because I think my clothes are making me sick. But didn't really get anything much just merely catching up with monster. Yupp, we talked so much especially on the subject, relationship, uh hmm. HA. Meet up with my aunts and cousins for a game of bowling in the evening, wasn't quite into it, but as I started to play along, its quite fun actually. Mac for supper and we head home straight. Sermon today was great, but I guess I'm too distracted, so ya. Happy 21st Kenneth. ((: Your house is HIGH la. Things have been confusing me too much that I can't even have the energy to breathe. I need to learn to surrender what's in my hands and allow God to take control, FOR REAL. The pain is gonna be unbearable when I've decided to surrender, but God is hurting as well when He gave Jesus up for us. I'm not there to solve the problem, but I will be there to do what a daughter ought to do. I thank God for your comfort, after these months, you have changed. Changing into a gentle woman and an encourager, I like your change. ((;
God, I'm merely man. A person who does not have any supernatural powers. Many things happen beyond my control, but everything is in Your hands. Since You've allowed it to happen, I will respect Your way of doing. I thank You for friends that comfort me and I thank You for Your love. It's kinda confusing. Love is the one that pull me down, but love is also the one that kept me going. Now, I know that it's man's love that pull me down but Your love that kept me going.
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
I don't know what's freaking wrong with the both of you. Obviously one lacks of trust for the other, and the other simply don't bother about anything. SO WHAT! Don't tell me anything about what's going on. I have eyes, I can see. Or even I can see it clearer and better than you both does. I'm not angry, but fed up. You adults handle your stuff well and don't drag us in, no, don't drag ME in. Say that I'm selfish or whatsoever, I don't care. If I really have the chance, I will not hesitate to scream my lungs out at you both and ask what's freaking wrong for the past 3 years!! Are you both blind or what, don't you see there's something missing between the both of you?! Oh yeahhh, I'm wrong. You both knew exactly that there's something wrong BUT wasn't doing anything. C'mon la, do I still need to teach you how to sit down and settle everything properly? Or do you still need me to teach you how to eat!! I'm seriously not satisfied with what you both are providing me. Money? Clothes? Food? or even a home? Its not a home to me anymore, ever since you guys have a BIG fight years ago, I never treat this freaking place as my home, its just a house. Let me explain, a house is merely a space that allows one to sleep in whereas a home is where one can sleep in AND TO FEEL LOVE! I always have the urge to scream out every vulgarities I know right into your faces. ughhhhh! I will move away once I have the capability to do so. If time can reverse, all the more better, the fact is, it can't. Forget it, the hurt you both planted in me was not removed, it will never be removed. I will smile and let you two see how fine I am with life, so don't ever worry about me.It's not removed, it's not forgotten, it's just being pushed right down the bottom in me.
God, if its easily removed then do take it away. But I doubt so because if that's the case, it will be removed long ago. I know everything happens because You allowed it, or because we create these unwanted suffering ourselves. I don't understand too much things that now I'm so confused. My focus on You are getting blur, if they would have got to know You, everything would be different isn't it. I'm always the impatient one, let me see what You have for this situation and maybe I will feel much more better. I'm so numb about everything that only coming before You will I take off my mask and show my true self.
P.S I'm fine, just need somewhere to shout out my frustrations.
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Monday, November 23, 2009
Fendi showed me this video, I was addicted to it. It reminded me the purpose of Jesus death.
Thank You for the price You paid, for the terrible cost of love.
Whenever you feel like giving up, remember that Jesus never once thought of giving up on the love for us.
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